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"Don't you ever leave me! Ever! You hear!?! You promised to never leave me! You swore! I'm holding you to it...Don't ever leave me..."

So this is just a gift for my beloved friend *wolfystar.
A couple of days ago, I had a major emotional break down.
A major one.
I was going crazy.
I wanted to die.
I was ready to die.
She called me....and I couldn't help but cry.
She sang this song to me. When I was crying. When I told her how I wanted to end it all. How I told her I was sick of having a fake smile on and how I hated life with such a passion.

When I told her that I felt like I was just a filler space to everyone I met and know. When I told her I felt like I was just a mistake and not meant to be in anyone’s life.

When I told her I’m so weak emotionally and I wasn’t sure I could deal with going through life. When I told her no one would want someone like me around.

How I’m just a sin that’s here today and gone tomorrow. How nothing ever goes right and when I’m sad no one ever sees through the smile.

How I’ve dealt with the pain for so long and covering it up just never seemed to help.

How ready I was to burn in the pits of hell. How I felt so alone.

Oh so alone…

She called….and sang this to me. Not in the bf/gf bf/bf gf/gf kinda way but in the, I’ve been there for you before we were friends and I haven’t left you.

I’ll pick you up when you fall and I’ll always be by your side. You’ll never be alone no matter what goes through your head. I’ve always been here and always will. You can always hold me hand when you’re scared and lonely and scream and cry when you’re ready to burst.

I’m always here and I’m not going to let you be alone. Ever. Not now Not ever. In that kinda way.

She sang this song to me.

And I felt happy.

This is how it’s felt…for so long…to be happy, helps so much. Thank you.

She song this song to me....If The Moon Fell Down Tonight by Chase Coy.
I've heard people promise to never leave me...
"I promised didn't I? Well I swear then..."
that's what she told me, and I'm holding her to it.
Yes other friends helped me too.
But...that just...meant so much...
I cryed silently as she sang.
And once she hung up I cryed harder than ever.
It's been so long since I've been hugged.
And I felt like she was hugging me even though she wasn't physically there for me.

"I must've done something right, to deserve you in my life.."
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MMKeene's avatar
Oh goodness you are so better at anime than so many "epic manga wannabee" teens I have met.

Love the emotion and your shading is always so lovely. :)